Jan 19, 2020
• Been a seeker since my 20s, I felt like I was missing
something, there had to be more to life, I wasn't truly happy.
• I became OBSESSED with self-help material, looking for that thing
that was going to turn my life around. Only a lot later I
realised the whole time I was sub-consciously telling myself that
'I'm not good enough as I am', I need to learn more. I was
completely addicted, one book to the next to the next, cramming it
in.
• Crippled by 'perfectionism' in all areas of life, everything
needed to be impossibly perfect! - I later realised it didn't even
come from love for the thing, but more from fear of judgement for
getting something wrong and looking less than perfect.
• Brother diagnosed to Stage 4 cancer in my early 30s - this is how
I heard of you through your 180 podcasts. I became obsessed with
health, trying to find answers to his condition.
• Heard of ayahuasca, became obsessed with it (the calling) was
this the 'silver bullet' I've been looking for?
• My brother passed away 4.5 years after diagnosis - I was at an
extremely low point if I died in the Jungle so be it. So almost
immediately traveled to Peru, the Amazon for 5 Aya ceremonies, got
absolutely DESTROYED - the most humbling experience of my life, but
then rebuilt with such profound love.
But I believe I wasn't ready for all the messages I
received....
• Broke up with a long-term girlfriend - we had grown apart even
further after aya. Hit another low-point.
• Went all in on starting a digital marketing business, for months,
got my first client, but there was so much inner-resistance, I
hated it and I still was basing my all my SELF-WORTH on everything
outside of myself (achievement, possessions, money, etc)
• It wasn't until I abandoned the constant striving and the
self-help consumption and 'let go' from sheer exhaustion that
opportunities really started to come...
• First one - Let it in academy... I've been meditating for years,
but I decided to go in with a beginners mindset, starting with the
basics and within a week I had experienced one of the most profound
moments of my life - an almost out-of-body experience showing me
how cruel I was being to myself, I burst into tears but was then
met with bliss like I never experienced as I knew I'd found what I
was looking for all these years - love and respect for myself (this
has been the turning point of my life)
• saw adverts about the retreat, I couldn't really responsibly
afford it after all the time I had off starting a business but I
just knew I had to go so I leaned in on that feeling "F##k it, I'm
all in, I'll find a way".
• The retreat was exactly where I needed to be, meeting LIKE-MINDED
PEOPLE has been invaluable and made all the difference
• Shout out to Petra, wouldn't be where I am without her guidance
and yours. And Matt just completely caught me by surprise - so
grateful.
Main takeaways
Get out of your head, it can lead you in the wrong direction,
listen to your heart and lean into what you think it's saying even
if it's scary and everyone tells you otherwise
Be kind and loving to yourself - you are WAY better and more
capable than you think you are. The more you truly learn to love
yourself the more you'll start to back yourself in the outside
world – the possibilities are limitless!
I don't believe you'll find answers to life's big questions in a
book! They come from within, journey inwards (get help if you need
to) through meditation and trust, trust, trust
True freedom comes from vulnerability - to lower your armor and
have the courage to show your true self to the world and risk
judgment, you may lose some people in your life in doing that, but
you'll retain the ones that matter and attract a new tribe.
Gratitude really is the shortcut to happiness (so easy to take this
for granted - I know I did) but it takes daily effort WITH
EMOTION
You might get there alone eventually, but its much faster
'together' with like-minded people (Let it in academy and retreat)
and with mentors playing a few steps ahead (Guy, Matt, Petra)
It's a lifestyle, but now I'm really enjoying the journey (which is
the gift, not the destination). I truly believe anything is
possible with this work.
Learn more about Guy:
www.guylawrence.com.au
Let It In Academy:
www.letitin.com.au